I am Me and they are THREE!

I have a 2 month old screaming in the background, I have a 5 year old watching Alice in Wonderland and complaining how she is scared and I continue to push away my 2 year old fingers as they approach this keyboard.  I have 2 hands and at any given time I am overpowered and outnumbered.

I hear that going from one to two kids is hard.  I honestly have to disagree.  In my case, going from two kids to three has been crazy.  At any given time I am being pulled in all different directions.  I cant seem to catch a break.  I feed the baby and then its time for the older girls to either eat, shower, play or nap.  Its just constant.  I wonder how that woman on TLC with 19 kids does it.  I mean I am going crazy with three and her ass keeps on popping kids left and right.  When do they have time for sex (oh lord please don't let my father read this post).  

The decision to go from two to three was easy, but I truly did not realize how crazy life will get. Baby Sohni is two months and I know that things will get easier as she gets out of her colic stage in the next couple of months.  Yasmin is 5 Publish Postand I have to keep a very close eye on her so she does not grow too fast.  She like to watch icarly and victorious!  seriously!!!  those show may be suitable for a 9 year old but my baby does not need to be watching those shows at her age.  My middle child is just in her own little world.  All she wants is her pacifier, blanket and milk!  

As I type this post I have all my three girls laying on top of me.  I just love being loved by them.  Its the only type of love that can feel so real.  

Super Mom

Lately I have had zero time to myself and therefore unable to write.  Its 251am and I just had to do this!  Laying in bed I was thinking how so many people that I run into these days call me Super Mom.  What does that really mean?

The moment someone says that to me, I get images of me walking around in my house with baby throw up on my clothes, play dough all stuck in my hair, my white socks looking brown due to unmopped wood floors, or my upper lip which needs to be threaded very soon!  How do I convince people that me staying at home with the girls is the hardest thing, especially when my husband takes off to Vegas for 4 days for a "all guy" trip!  I am no Super Mom.  I am a woman who has realized that this is my life..these are my kids and I will always have a smile on my face no matter how bad it gets, because I am BLESSED!

We as moms tend to put so much pressure on ourselves to be that "Super Mom".  I think they should make a documentary called "Super Mom" and bring cameras into the lives of both working and stay at home moms.  I speak for myself when I note how my husband notices the end result of everything I do.  So he walks in the bathroom and notice that I bought the hair gel, mousse, contact solutions and q-tips.  The fact that food is on the counter and everything is freshly made.  The fact that all three girls are smelling good and have the cleanest clothes on their body.  These things do not magically appear.  I do them!  I started out by saying how there is no such thing as super mom and now I am convincing myself that there is a Super Woman in every household.

How about I just take a compliment of being a Super Mom.  Next time instead of responding with anything.  I am just going to say THANK YOU.  I am a Super Mom.

I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello Everyone!!!  I have been missing in action for the past month and trust me I have all the good reasons.  I gave birth to our third daughter, Sohni, in August and since then life at home has been in chaos mode.  I didn't realize how hard the transition would be going from 2 to 3 kids.  Its amazing how soon we forget all that we go through with a new born in the house.

• Sleepless nights!
• Colic baby
• Breast feeding blues
• Supplementing/pumping
• Lack of time for a nice warm shower
• Being able to eat a warm plate of food
• Unexplainable crying
• Rushing to diffuse baby cries so the siblings don't wake up in the middle of the night

Lately I have been feeling like a zombie.  Sohni wakes up every 2 hours and sometimes it takes her 4 more hours to go back to sleep.  Finally when she falls asleep at 5am, I get to sleep for 2 hours before my middle child wakes up and starts her day.

The best part of being a mom to a third child is knowing that this time will pass.  Its 2am right now and Sohni has been up since midnight.  I have burped her 6 times already since she is so gassy and walked around with her twice.  No matter how difficult this stage is, I realize that I need to cherish this time with my baby as they grow up so so fast.

Kill me, Shoot me, Slap me Silly!

I have two monsters in my face screaming.  Seriously!!! are you kidding me.  Can you both get off my face.  I swear I could just disappear.  One is asking me to watch her as she works on her scholastic book and the other one is determined to shove her sippy cup in my face.

I feel deaf, dead, insane, out of control, and wanting to run away.  At times I amaze myself by totally shutting down while the chaos is surrounding me.  I can just get lost in my little world and continue to hear the kids scream.  Finally my daughter goes, "mommy why are you not talking"..honestly...I just don't know what to say, what to do, how to react, etc!

Thank God its 8:18pm and its bedtime for the 2 year old.  I am going to take her upstairs and then try to just relax with my cup of tea.  God help me!

Approaching My Mid-30s!!!

At 12:00am sharp I get a big kiss on my cheek and my husband yells out "Happy Birthday Honey".  With a nice thank you came the ever so painful thought, how old am I now?  34!  that's right I am 34 today.  I am growing way too fast.  I still remember celebrating my 25th birthday like yesterday, but almost 10 years have passed and I still wish I was 25 again.

They say wisdom comes with age.  I don't know if I have gained any of that, but I do know I have gained some lbs, responsibilities, wrinkles, and of course cellulite.  After a very tough year, I pray that this year is filled with the best of health for myself and my family members.  I pray that this year brings me new level of patience and an appreciation for every little thing in life.  I am blessed to have lots of love around me and I hope to give it all back.

As I am typing this, my 5 year old approaches me and sits next to me to see what I am doing.  In my excitement I say to her, "its mommy's birthday today".  Her reply, "mommy when is grandma and Mani auntie giving me my birthday present".  What a great reminder of telling myself that as a mom, its no longer about me!

I am becoming my Mom..

I am sure most of you grew up telling yourself that you will never act like your mom.  I would be lying if I did not admit to that.  I swore that I would be nothing like her.  Sadly,  I have failed myself.  I am just like my mommy.  My moods, my entertainment style, my patience, my pep talk with kids, my cooking style..its all like good 'ol mom.

Today as I sat down on the couch with my hot cup of chai, I was reminded of my childhood days where my mom would do the same.  I remember those days when  I would volunteer to pick up her chai cup so I could gulp the last sip that she left off.  My daughter did the same with me today.  Amazing how history repeats itself. Love you mom!

Potty Training Failure

My legs and fingers are numb.  I can no longer feel my brain cells..Ladies!  I am about to lose it!!!

I have tried the lollipop bribe, set up the potty right in front of the laptop so Kiran may watch The Wiggles as she tries to do her business in the potty.  Every effort has failed.  She sat on the potty for almost 30 mins and no success.  She has yet to drop anything in the hole!  We have been following the same routine now for the past 4 days...arghhhh!

Any suggestions!!! Please help me!!